crying

i cried for the first time about leaving on sunday.
actually it wasn't the first time. that was last october when i found out i'd been invited to interview in tucsan, US. i'd had probably my first good lesson with my exam class (i'd been teaching them over a year) and was distraught about leaving them - as we were now finally 'building a relationship'. needless to say that feeling didn't last long and now i feel stupid about ever thinking of staying another year to take them to AS exams!!
so sunday. donato and i were at my auntie's for a bbq. i wasn't even sad, didn't even feel like i was going anywhere. and then i said goodbye to bethany (my cousin's daughter) and the tears flooded. i cried for the rest of the evening, thinking it might be a very long time till i see her and the rest of my family again.
i must not cry at school. that would be sooo embarrassing. especially as everyone knows i can't wait to leave behind the hell that is l****wood. but how can i ensure this when the tears came so easily and without warning last sunday??

packing

i've never ever spent so much money in my life. all donato and i do is shop. every weekend. we leave the house at 11 and return home at 4 (if we're lucky) with bags full of things we may or may not be able to buy in malawi. i heard from the teachers already there that it's impossible to buy most things, and anything you can buy is 4 times the price. and i don't mean the price is quadrupled for foreigners. i mean 4 times the price you can get it for in england.

so now we have just about everything we need for the next 2 years. enough washing powder, cleaning fluids, sunblock, tampons so that all we'll have to buy is food.

the only thing left to do now is to pack it!

i'm a celebrity

i can't tell you how often i've thought "get me out of here" when i've realised i've been in england too long. the country has this suffocating effect on me. i've always known i wasn't supposed to stay there, or anywhere, for too long.
so finally i am leaving... most probably for good. that makes me a little sad, but i can't wait for the adventure that is just around the corner. 3 weeks and 3 days of school left!